I'd apologize for ranting but there's no need since no one cares.  I've gone from being high and craving drugs and other highs to crashing and craving some sort of physical released.  Running, hitting something, cutting myself.

Ahh, the latter.  It has been so long, actually.  I want to so much right now.  With a fucking razor blade.  But I have to wear a bathing suit in two days.