I figure that if I keep an LJ I should actually use it sometimes.

I have come to the realization that I am fucking infatuated with Luke, all over again.  Not the new sort of incredulous liking - like, this is so awesomesauce I can't believe it's happening, but the mellow, this is amazing and has been for so long and damn it, I love him.

I can say that now.  I feel a little more content.

I also miss him like crazy.  He's my fix.  I don't get to see him enough.  I am - we are - hoping that we will get a chance to see each other more as I start school and stay in the dorms on campus next school year.

Oh yes.  I've graduated.

I want to sleep with him.  Not sleep with him as in have sex.  Just sleep with him.  Him beside me.  He says he has the self-control, and...well.  This which I wrote explains it way better.